Transit of Neptune.

Neptune King of the Deep,  Ruler of Pisces, controller of illusions, glamour and spiritual insights, will go direct tomorrow or Thursday, depending on where on the globe you're looking from it seems.

I am glad not to have had a 'real job' since Neptune went retrograde in early June this year, I don't doubt that it would have been thoroughly dispiriting to have been trying to give 100%, when really in my heart nothing of the world has seen me able to give 100% for quite some time. Aside from the delights of birds and trees and the things of truth in nature. The sheer awe and affection I have for the natural world, of these things I can give 100% of my love and affections.

Dear Mister Neptune we have travelled  together a ways now and I've been quite glad of your nebulous presence.  You have been a good protector by showing me things that have deepened my understanding and accelerated my growth. The things I have learnt which I can readily recall, seem to verify what I have read and been taught about the spiritual world.

• Swedenborg is right.  If we could see the hells that pursue us, their number and variety, we would indeed be paralysed by fear. The other day (for instance), to my left at 10 O'clock,  I glimpsed a grey, wiry, old hound set to leap towards me.  I've no idea whether he launched himself, as the image was gone the second I saw it. 
• The poltergeist who resides in certain places is always best left ignored--once you emotionally engage with him he has an 'in'.  These things look like Goblins and that's possibly where the stories began.  I know because in the hypnogogic I saw one, clearly and he was goblin-like in appearance.
• Emotionally engaging with anything is cause for extreme care and attention. True power comes from the fulsome engagement by the emotions, but care needs to be taken with what one engages in--obviously
• Self-sensing "if practised assiduously" --and I try, believe me I do, helps to give a measure of control in what energies we let into our bodies, and how we move conscious energy within our body.  Moving our conscious awareness around our bodies from the mind to the heart to the fingertips, to the organs, with practise, makes for skilful control or at least some control over our chi, our life-force our life-mind energy.
• I was not entirely surprised but quite pleased I could slow down my pulse rate, quite quickly when I was bedside and bored with my boyfriend as we waited in a hospital Emergency department.  I also had a point to prove about the level of anxiety he was feeling lying still and  as his pulse rocketed along at 120 as shown by the pulse monitor, stuck like a peg on his finger. I thought perhaps he should try to calm the fuck down and so I stuck it on mine and said 'watch this' having no idea what would happen.  I bought my pulse back from 88 to 64 by intentionally slowing everything right down. We all have different talents, said the nurse who kept saying to him in excited tones, to relax because she couldn't get the needle into is vein. The boyfriend had, as some boyfriends tend to drift towards, a low opinion of the 'missus' at the time and I thought perhaps if he sees that 'she can do it' so could he.  The boyfriend is also competitive.  
• Stilling the mind is best done with the breath, we can't stop our thoughts, but we can slow them down. Our being, our soul, our unconscious enjoys a daily respite from the onslaught of a million disparate thoughts. 
• I can function from a higher part of my being if I want to, I just have to want to but often like some idiot brat, I don't want to or like an imbecile I forget that it's possible.
• Observing oneself, even when behaving badly, ameliorates the passion of whatever we are engaged in and therefore is also a protective measure.  The leaping hound perhaps had difficulty landing in me, because I had seen him and knew he was there.

• Making it successfully through a panel interview with Old Man Neptune sitting at your shoulder is I'd wager-- unlikely.  People suspect you can see a lot more about them then they would care to reveal to others and even themselves, even if you are unwitting or hapless in this. It tends to make a prospective employer or colleague a tad suspicious and people who are fearful or suspicous of you, do not by and large give you a job.  It's almost impossible to be Pollyanna-like in this situation,  this whole pretentious business in the world of interviews and crappy jobs, Neptune just wants to be somewhere more real, even if to everyone else that place seems wildly illusory.